Chapter 1 - The Name on the Radio

At Pine Harbor Naval Medical Center, Annie Keller had become the subject of a joke that never seemed to end.
For seven months, she had worked the night shift without complaining about the way her colleagues treated her.
Physicians laughed at her nervous manner.
Junior corpsmen imitated her quiet voice.
Someone had begun calling her Mouse, and the nickname followed her from the nurses' station to the supply rooms and into the emergency department.
Annie rarely answered.
She kept her eyes lowered, completed her assignments, and avoided drawing attention to herself.
Her hands sometimes trembled when someone watched her too closely.
That detail only encouraged further ridicule.
On a stormy night in northern Maine, Dr. Warren Teague found another opportunity.
"Careful, Mouse. Try not to drop the whole tray this time."
He laughed before finishing the sentence.
Two corpsmen at the desk joined him.
Annie lowered an instrument tray onto the cart.
Her fingers shook slightly.
"See that?" Teague said. "Church mouse nerves. Quiet Annie, ladies and gentlemen. Seven months on the night shift, and she has said maybe forty words."
"Forty-one," said Danny Ortiz, the youngest corpsman. "I counted."
The men laughed again.
Annie did not respond.
She adjusted the tray, keeping her head low.
Several strands of dark brown hair had escaped her untidy bun, but she made no attempt to fix them.
Pine Harbor Naval Medical Center stood at the end of a long county road in northern Maine.
It was a small military hospital with forty beds and a modest emergency department.
The nearest major trauma center was approximately ninety minutes away by road.
Above the entrance, a sign carried the words:
SERVICE. SACRIFICE. HEAL.
During the night shift, those principles did not always influence how employees treated one another.
It was shortly after two in the morning.
A storm had been building since dusk.
Heavy rain struck the windows, and strong wind rattled the ambulance bay doors.
Teague leaned back in his chair.
He was forty-four years old, tall, confident, and accustomed to controlling the atmosphere of the department.
On his shift, few people challenged either his decisions or his behavior.
He looked toward Annie.
"Hey, Mouse, fetch me a coffee. A real one this time. And don't spill it on the chart."
"Yes, doctor."
Her reply was barely audible.
Teague smiled toward the corpsmen, pleased by her obedience.
Annie walked to the breakroom.
Her navy scrubs were slightly too large.
A thin scar crossed the area above her right eyebrow.
Several old shrapnel scars formed a pale ridge along her left forearm.
She generally kept that arm covered.
The breakroom was empty.
Annie placed a cup beneath the coffee machine and watched the dark liquid begin to fill it.
A small plastic toy mouse sat on the counter.
Someone had left a similar toy on her locker the previous week.
Another had appeared on her chair.
Now one had been placed beside the coffee machine.
She did not throw it away.
She never did.
Instead, she reached beneath the collar of her scrub top and touched a thin chain resting against her chest.
Two military identification tags hung from it.
One belonged to Annie.
The other carried the name:
DANIEL M. MORALES.
She closed her fingers around them briefly.
Then released the chain and concentrated on breathing.
In for four counts.
Out for four.
She had been living this way for seven months.
Pine Harbor was not a place she had been assigned against her wishes.
She had deliberately chosen the small hospital, its isolated location, and its relatively quiet night shifts.
She wanted to work somewhere people did not ask about her earlier life.
On difficult nights, she counted ceiling tiles to occupy her thoughts.
There were forty-two in the breakroom.
Sixty in the main hallway.
Eighteen above Trauma Bay One.
Numbers helped keep memories from becoming pictures.
Linda Marsh entered while Annie waited for the coffee.
Linda was sixty-one, the oldest nurse on the floor, with silver hair and an expression that usually showed both fatigue and kindness.
"Don't let him get to you, honey."
"He doesn't."
Linda studied her.
"I've watched you for seven months. You never look at the monitors, but you always know when a patient is about to crash."
Annie gave a small smile.
"Lucky guess."
Linda made a quiet sound of disbelief but did not press.
Annie carried the coffee back to the nurses' station.
Teague accepted it without looking at her.
"Thanks, Mouse."
The clock showed 2:51 a.m.
Outside, the storm intensified.
The lights flickered once.
Then steadied.
Teague began telling the corpsmen about a patient who had once swallowed a golf ball.
They laughed.
Annie stood beside the supply cart, restocking gauze with careful, efficient movements.
Her hands were no longer shaking.
Nobody noticed.
At 2:58 a.m., the department became unusually quiet.
Annie sensed the change before anyone else reacted.
She lifted her eyes toward the ambulance bay doors.
Then looked at the clock.
At approximately three, the trauma radio crackled.
Static filled the speaker.
Then a man's voice emerged through wind and engine noise.
"Pine Harbor, Pine Harbor, this is Reaper Two. Inbound by ground. ETA eight minutes. One critical, penetrating chest trauma. Multiple fragmentation wounds. Request trauma team standing by."
Teague rolled his eyes.
"Reaper Two? What is that, a scout troop?"
Danny picked up the handset.
"Reaper Two, Pine Harbor. Say again your unit."
The reply was interrupted by static.
"Negative, Pine Harbor. We need your best medic at the doors. Repeat, we need—"
The transmission broke apart.
Then the man's voice returned, louder and strained.
"Does anyone there answer to Angel Six?"
The instrument tray slipped from Annie's hands.
It struck the tiled floor.
Metal instruments scattered.
Everyone turned.
Annie stood motionless.
Her face had gone pale.
Her eyes were fixed on the radio.
"Look at that," Teague said with a laugh. "Mouse dropped it again."
Nobody joined him.
Linda watched Annie closely.
Danny stopped smiling.
Annie crouched.
She collected the tray.
Her hands were completely steady.
She placed it back on the cart.
Then she straightened.
Something about her changed.
Her shoulders moved back.
Her chin lifted.
For the first time in seven months, she looked directly at Dr. Teague without immediately lowering her eyes.
"Doctor, how many staff do we have in the building right now?"
Teague blinked.
"What?"
"Staff. Right now."
He hesitated.
"Me, you, Linda, Danny, two more corpsmen. Dr. Hale is on call, but he's forty minutes out in this weather."
"Because eight minutes is not much time," Annie replied.
She turned toward Danny.
"Trauma Bay One. Rapid infuser on. Fluids warmed. Massive transfusion cooler open."
Then toward Linda.
"Two chest tube trays and a thirty-two French tube."
She addressed the other corpsmen.
"Everyone else, gloves and gowns."
For a moment, nobody moved.
"Now."
Danny responded first.
Linda followed.
The other corpsmen hurried toward the trauma bay.
Teague stood so abruptly that his chair rolled backward and struck the wall.
"Excuse me. You don't give orders in my ER."
"Then give them."
Teague opened his mouth.
Nothing came immediately.
He glanced toward the radio.
"This is some stunt from the base."
"It isn't. Listen to the voice."
Another transmission interrupted them.
"Cole's pressure is dropping. Seventy over forty. Move it."
Teague's expression changed.
He did not issue the instructions Annie had requested.
He also did not prevent the staff from carrying out hers.
Annie walked toward Trauma Bay One.
Linda followed.
"Annie?"
"Not now."
Linda stopped asking.
Within six minutes the room had changed.
Warm blankets.
Suction.
Airway equipment.
IV supplies.
Emergency blood products.
Chest drainage equipment.
Annie checked everything herself.
Danny stood beside her.
"Who is Angel Six?"
Annie pulled gloves over her hands.
"Someone who doesn't exist anymore."
Before Danny could ask another question, brakes screamed outside.
The ambulance bay doors opened.
Wind and rain exploded through the entrance.
Four men came through with a stretcher.
They were dressed in soaked field gear without identifying insignia Annie immediately recognized.
The patient was a man in his thirties.
Blood covered his chest.
A pressure dressing had been improvised along his left side.
Another medic was squeezing a bag of fluid as he ran.
"Thirty-four-year-old male," he shouted. "Blast fragmentation. Penetrating wound left anterior chest, another left flank. Needle decompressed once in transit. Pressure sixty palp. Heart rate one-fifty. Mental status declining."
Annie moved beside the stretcher.
"How long ago?"
"Twenty-six minutes."
"Blood given?"
"Two units whole blood from field kit."
"Airway?"
"Maintaining, barely."
The medic looked at her.
Then froze.
His face changed.
"Jesus."
Annie stared back.
"Rourke."
Chief Petty Officer Matthew Rourke looked as though he had seen a dead person standing upright.
"Angel Six?"
"Not here."
His eyes moved over her face.
Then toward the trauma bay.
"He's asking for you."
The patient groaned.
His eyes opened slightly.
"Six?"
Annie went still.
The voice took her somewhere else.
Sand.
Rotor blades.
Blood on tan gloves.
Daniel shouting over gunfire.
She forced the images down.
Not now.
The patient tried again.
"Angel..."
Annie leaned over him.
"I'm here."
The man relaxed by one fraction.
Teague entered the bay.
"All right. Move."
For the first thirty seconds, the old hierarchy tried to reassert itself.
Then the patient deteriorated.
His oxygen saturation fell.
Blood pressure became nearly unobtainable.
Teague listened to the chest.
"Breath sounds reduced on the left."
"Expected," Annie said.
Teague looked at her.
"We need another decompression."
"No."
His head snapped around.
"No?"
Annie's eyes were on the monitor.
"He's bleeding."
Teague's voice sharpened.
"And probably tensioning."
"The field needle improved him for less than two minutes. The chest is filling."
"How would you know that?"
Annie looked at the distended neck veins.
Then the monitor.
Then the patient's skin.
"Because the pressure is gone and he isn't ventilating like tension alone. Tube him. Chest tube now."
Teague hesitated.
Only a second.
It felt enormous.
Then the patient lost consciousness.
"Do it," Teague said.
Annie assisted with the chest tube.
Dark blood rushed through the tubing.
Too much.
Danny stared at the collection chamber.
"Oh God."
"Don't look at the floor," Annie said.
He looked at her.
"Look at your job."
Danny straightened.
"Yes, ma'am."
Nobody had ever called her ma'am in Pine Harbor.
The bleeding continued.
Teague's face tightened.
"Massive hemothorax."
Annie was already hanging blood.
"We need transfer."
"Not in this weather."
"We need a surgeon."
"Closest one can't get here."
Rourke stepped toward Annie.
"The unit has a surgeon twenty minutes behind us. Weather separated the convoy."
Teague stared.
"A surgeon?"
Rourke nodded.
"Commander Levin. He'll come if the road remains open."
Annie looked at the patient.
Cole.
She knew him now.
Evan Cole.
Years younger when she had last seen him.
He had been a new reconnaissance corpsman with an irritating smile and a habit of calling everyone by rank even in a firefight.
He should not know her callsign.
Not unless someone had told him.
"Hold pressure there," she told Linda.
Rourke moved closer.
"Six, what do you need?"
Annie's entire body stiffened at the name.
"No one calls me that."
Rourke's expression changed.
But he nodded.
"Annie. What do you need?"
"Get that surgeon here."
The next eighteen minutes became the longest Pine Harbor had experienced in years.
Cole received blood.
His pressure rose and collapsed.
Teague attempted to coordinate.
Annie anticipated.
At one point Cole's heart rhythm changed.
Annie recognized it before Teague spoke.
"Calcium."
Teague stared.
"What?"
"He's had enough blood to need calcium. Now."
Teague ordered it.
A few minutes later the rhythm improved.
Danny stopped looking at Annie as though she were a joke.
He began looking at her as though he did not know her at all.
Neither did anyone else.
At 3:31, another vehicle arrived.
Commander Rebecca Levin entered wearing wet combat trousers beneath a borrowed rain jacket.
She was a trauma surgeon.
She took one look at Cole, one at the blood output, and said, "We operate here."
Teague stared.
"Our OR isn't staffed."
"It will be."
Levin saw Annie.
She stopped.
Not long.
One second.
"Lieutenant Keller."
Annie flinched almost imperceptibly.
Linda heard it.
So did Teague.
Levin understood immediately that something was wrong.
She changed the form of address.
"Nurse Keller. Can you run damage-control setup?"
Teague laughed once in disbelief.
"She is a staff nurse."
Levin turned toward him.
"She ran trauma resuscitations in places with no walls."
Silence.
Annie closed her eyes briefly.
Levin had already said too much.
But Cole was dying.
"OR Two," Annie said. "Generator circuit is more stable. Linda, call surgical techs. Danny, blood bank. Wake everyone."
Teague looked at her.
"And what exactly do you think you're doing?"
Annie finally turned.
"Saving your patient."
The words were not loud.
They ended the argument.
For the next hour, Pine Harbor became something it had never been intended to become.
An improvised trauma center.
Levin operated.
Teague assisted with anesthesia until another physician arrived.
Linda coordinated nursing.
Danny ran blood products.
Annie moved between them with an efficiency no one had ever seen.
She did not rush.
She did not hesitate.
She knew what the surgeon would ask for before the request came.
She knew when blood was about to run out.
She knew which corpsman was near panic and reassigned him before his hands failed him.
Her own hands never shook once.
At 4:52 a.m., Commander Levin stepped away from the table.
Cole had a pulse.
He was not safe.
But he was alive.
No one spoke for several seconds.
Then Levin exhaled.
"Transfer at first weather window."
Danny leaned against the wall.
Linda closed her eyes.
Teague removed his gloves.
His face was gray with exhaustion.
Annie stood at the edge of the room.
Blood stained the front of her scrubs.
Rourke waited outside the doors.
When she emerged, he straightened.
"He's alive?"
"For now."
Rourke nodded.
Then his eyes dropped to the tags beneath her collar.
"Daniel's?"
Annie immediately covered them.
"Don't."
"I'm sorry."
"Who told Cole that name?"
Rourke hesitated.
"Morales did."
Everything inside Annie stopped.
She stared at him.
"Daniel has been dead three years."
Rourke's face changed.
"Annie."
"What?"
"I didn't mean Daniel."
She felt suddenly cold.
Rourke continued.
"I meant his brother."
Annie's hand closed around the identification tags.
"Gabriel?"
"He joined our medical detachment last year."
Annie stared.
She had not seen Gabriel Morales since Daniel's funeral.
Rourke lowered his voice.
"He talks about you."
"Why?"
"Because his brother died saving you."
The sentence hit with the force of a physical blow.
Annie stepped backward.
"No."
Rourke looked confused.
"What?"
"That's not what happened."
"Annie—"
"Daniel didn't die saving me."
Images broke through.
A burning vehicle.
A man screaming.
A radio call.
Daniel turning back when Annie ordered him not to.
Rourke took one step closer.
"That's what Gabriel believes."
Annie's breathing changed.
The hallway narrowed.
The storm disappeared.
For a moment she was back somewhere hot and filled with smoke.
Linda came through the doors and saw her.
"Annie."
No response.
Linda reached carefully for her arm.
"Look at me."
Annie's eyes moved.
"You're at Pine Harbor."
Annie focused on Linda's face.
"You're here."
The ceiling.
She looked up.
Twenty-four tiles.
White.
Clean.
No smoke.
She breathed.
Once.
Twice.
The tremor returned to her hands.
Teague entered the hallway.
He saw it.
For seven months, he had interpreted those shaking hands as weakness.
Now he knew better.
He opened his mouth.
Perhaps to apologize.
Perhaps to ask who she was.
Before he could speak, the trauma radio crackled again.
Everyone turned.
A different voice came through.
"Pine Harbor, this is Coast Guard Rescue Five. Multiple-vehicle collision on Route Eleven. Estimated nine casualties. Road to Bangor closed by washout. You are the closest receiving facility."
The department went silent.
Nine casualties.
Forty-bed hospital.
One exhausted surgeon.
One rural emergency physician.
A storm still raging.
Teague looked toward Annie.
For the first time since she had arrived seven months earlier, there was no mockery in his face.
There was fear.
"Can we handle that?"
Annie looked through the OR doors at the man they had barely kept alive.
Then toward the emergency department where stretchers were already being prepared.
Her fingers still trembled.
May you like
But her voice did not.
"We're going to have to."