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Chapter 2 - The Woman They Erased

I took Renata home before I asked another question.

That decision saved me from doing something I might have regretted.

My father wanted me to stay.

Daniela begged me to sit down.

My mother followed us all the way to the front door, crying so hard she could barely speak.

“Mauricio, please don't leave like this.”

I zipped Renata's coat.

“Move.”

“Let me explain.”

“Not in front of my daughter.”

“She is my—”

I turned so sharply that Carmen stopped.

“Don't.”

She stared at me.

“You don't get to call her anything right now.”

Behind us, Rafael said, “Mauricio.”

I faced him.

He looked older than he had an hour earlier.

“What?”

“Whatever you think happened, there are details you don't understand.”

“I understand enough.”

“No, you don't.”

“Then you have forty-eight hours to remember every detail before I meet that law firm.”

His jaw tightened.

“You're threatening us?”

“No.”

I picked up Renata.

“I am warning you that if I discover either of you harmed Elena, lied about my child, interfered with Renata's adoption, or covered up a crime, I will not protect you.”

My mother whispered my name.

I opened the door.

Cold air swept inside.

“Merry Christmas.”

Then I carried my daughter into the snow.

For most of the drive home, Renata was silent.

She sat in the back seat with her stuffed rabbit, Mr. Buttons, tucked under her arm.

I had bought her that rabbit after the one from the hospital had finally fallen apart.

Or so I had believed.

That night, after everything I learned, I would discover something else.

The original rabbit had never fallen apart.

Someone had taken it.

At the time, I knew none of that.

I was trying to breathe.

At a red light, Renata finally spoke.

“Daddy?”

“Yes?”

“Is Elena my mommy?”

I closed my eyes for a moment.

“Yes.”

“Was she your friend?”

I looked at her in the mirror.

“She was.”

“Did you love her?”

Children have a way of walking directly into truths adults spend years avoiding.

“Yes,” I said. “Very much.”

“Did she love me?”

My throat tightened.

“I believe she loved you more than anything.”

“Then why did she go away?”

“She died, sweetheart.”

“I know.”

She hugged the rabbit.

“But did she want to?”

“No.”

That answer came easily.

Whatever else Elena had done, whatever secrets waited inside that law office, I knew this:

Elena would never have willingly abandoned her child.

Renata looked out the window.

“Grandma said people leave when you aren't worth staying for.”

My hands tightened around the steering wheel.

“When did she say that?”

“She wasn't talking to me.”

“Who was she talking to?”

“Aunt Daniela.”

I remembered a summer barbecue several months earlier.

Renata had been playing near the patio while my mother and sister sat near the pool.

I had been grilling.

Apparently my daughter had heard more than I realized.

“Grandma said some people don't belong no matter how hard somebody tries to make them.”

I pulled the car to the side of the road.

Then I turned around.

“Renata.”

She looked at me.

“What Grandma said was wrong.”

“Okay.”

“No. I need you to know this.”

I unbuckled my seat belt and reached back.

“You never have to earn your place with me.”

Her eyes filled.

“Even if Elena is my mommy?”

“Yes.”

“Even if you're not my real daddy?”

My chest broke all over again.

“I was your real daddy yesterday.”

She nodded.

“I was your real daddy this morning.”

Another nod.

“And I will be your real daddy tomorrow. A blood test can't make me more your father, and it can't make me less your father.”

She thought about that.

Then she asked, “If the test says you are my blood daddy too, can I have two kinds of daddy?”

Despite everything, I laughed.

“Yes.”

She smiled.

“I want that.”

So did I.

After Renata went to sleep, I poured myself a glass of bourbon and didn't drink it.

Instead, I sat in my dark study and opened a box I had not touched in years.

Inside were photographs.

Old concert tickets.

A hotel key card from Santa Fe.

A dried white rose.

And one picture of Elena Marquez standing barefoot on a beach, holding her shoes above her head while she laughed at whoever was behind the camera.

Me.

I had taken that photograph nine years earlier.

Elena had been twenty-seven.

She worked as an internal auditor for a nonprofit housing organization that sometimes partnered with Serrano Development.

That was how we met.

Not at a charity gala like my mother later told people.

Not through mutual friends.

Elena had walked into one of my project meetings and told me a contractor we used was falsifying invoices.

I had been offended.

Then impressed.

Then hopelessly attracted to her.

She didn't care that my family had money.

In fact, she disliked most things about wealth.

She hated expensive restaurants where waiters whispered.

She drove a twelve-year-old Honda.

She bought books from library sales.

She once made me return a four-hundred-dollar handbag because, in her words, “No purse should cost more than somebody's rent.”

My mother disliked her from the beginning.

Carmen's objections were always disguised as concern.

Elena was too independent.

Too blunt.

Too ambitious.

Too “different.”

What my mother really meant was that Elena's father had been a mechanic and her mother had cleaned offices at night.

Elena had paid for college herself.

She had no family name.

No social connections.

No interest in becoming the obedient wife of a Serrano heir.

My father was less obvious.

Rafael rarely insulted Elena.

He simply never included her.

If there was a family dinner, he “forgot” to add a place setting.

If there was a company event, her invitation disappeared.

If there was a photograph, he somehow managed to stand where she could be cropped out later.

I noticed.

I just didn't understand how far they were willing to go.

The last night I saw Elena, she had been standing in my apartment kitchen.

She was nervous.

I remember that now.

At the time, I thought she was upset because I was leaving for Chicago for two weeks.

I had been negotiating a redevelopment deal.

She kept touching the pocket of her coat.

I asked what was wrong.

She smiled.

“Nothing.”

I kissed her.

“You're terrible at lying.”

“I know.”

“Then tell me.”

She looked at me for a long time.

Then she said, “When you get back.”

I laughed.

“You're going to make me wait two weeks?”

“Yes.”

“What if I refuse?”

“Then I will enjoy watching you suffer.”

I grabbed her around the waist.

She screamed and laughed.

That sound remained in my memory after everything else faded.

The next morning, I flew to Chicago.

Three days later, Elena stopped answering.

Then came the message.

Mauricio,

I'm sorry. I can't do this anymore. I met someone else. Please don't contact me.

I called thirty-seven times.

Nothing.

I drove home early.

Her apartment was empty.

My mother found me sitting outside it.

She told me Elena had always been restless.

“She wanted something easier,” Carmen said.

I believed her because I had no other explanation.

Months later, a friend claimed Elena had moved west.

Years passed.

Then, shortly before Renata's adoption, I saw a brief article about the death of an Elena Marquez in a highway accident.

The age matched.

The city matched.

I sat in my office for an hour staring at the screen.

I wanted to attend the funeral.

There wasn't one listed.

By then, I believed the woman I loved had chosen another life.

I mourned privately.

A week later, I met Renata.

I had never connected them.

How could I?

Marquez was not a rare surname.

Elena was not a rare first name.

And the social worker handling Renata's case repeatedly told me the child's mother had no known connection to my family.

Now I wondered who had provided that information.

At one in the morning, I called Diane Mercer.

She answered on the fifth ring.

“Mauricio?”

“I'm sorry.”

“Do you know what time it is?”

“Yes.”

“Is Renata okay?”

I swallowed.

“I need to ask you something about her adoption.”

The pause was small.

But I heard it.

“What?”

“Did anyone from my family speak to you before I adopted her?”

Silence.

“Diane.”

“I can't discuss confidential case records.”

“You told me her biological father was unknown.”

“That was what the file said.”

“Did my mother contact you?”

Another pause.

“Why are you asking?”

“Because I received a letter from Elena Marquez's attorney.”

Diane inhaled sharply.

That was all I needed.

“You knew.”

“No.”

“You knew something.”

“Mauricio—”

“Was Renata's biological mother the Elena Marquez I knew?”

“I was not personally acquainted with her.”

“That wasn't my question.”

“I can't legally—”

“I'm having a DNA test performed in two days.”

Silence.

Then Diane whispered, “Oh, God.”

My heart began pounding.

“What?”

“I told them this would happen.”

“Who?”

“I can't do this over the phone.”

“Who, Diane?”

She lowered her voice.

“There were instructions in the file.”

“What instructions?”

“Your adoption application was flagged for review.”

“By whom?”

“Someone from the Serrano family foundation.”

I stood.

“My family foundation had access to a state adoption?”

“No. Not officially.”

“What does that mean?”

“It means somebody powerful made calls.”

I stared at the wall.

“Did you know Renata might be my daughter?”

“I suspected there was more to the story.”

“And you said nothing?”

“I didn't have proof. And when I raised concerns, my supervisor removed me from parts of the case.”

“Who was your supervisor?”

“He retired three years ago.”

“Name.”

“Gerald Haskins.”

I wrote it down.

Then Diane said something that made my blood go cold.

“Mauricio, there is something else.”

“What?”

“Before Renata was transferred into foster care, she arrived at the hospital with two personal items.”

“I know. The rabbit.”

“And a red leather notebook.”

I frowned.

“I never heard about a notebook.”

“I know.”

“What happened to it?”

“It disappeared.”

“When?”

“Two days after your mother visited the hospital.”

I went completely still.

“My mother visited Renata before I met her?”

“Yes.”

The room seemed to move.

“Are you certain?”

“I signed her visitor authorization myself.”

“Why would she visit a child she supposedly didn't know?”

Diane didn't answer.

She didn't need to.

When I finally went upstairs, I found Renata asleep with her arms around Mr. Buttons.

I sat beside her.

She looked like Elena.

How had I missed it?

Not exactly.

Renata had my dark eyes.

My eyebrows.

Even the same crooked little finger on her left hand that my grandfather had and my father still had.

But her mouth—

That was Elena.

I covered my face.

For six years, Elena had existed somewhere in the world as the mother of my child.

For two of those years, she had raised Renata alone.

And I had known nothing.

I wanted to blame my parents for every lost moment.

The pregnancy.

The birth.

The first smile.

The first tooth.

The first word.

I would never know whether Renata's first word had been Mama.

I would never know whether Elena had held her through fevers.

Whether she had told her stories about me.

Whether she had hated me.

Or waited for me.

At three in the morning, I returned downstairs.

The bourbon still sat untouched.

My phone showed thirteen missed calls from my mother.

Three from my father.

Five from Daniela.

One text from Victor.

You should hear them out before involving lawyers. This could destroy the family.

I stared at the message.

Then deleted it.

At nine the next morning, I called a private laboratory.

At ten, I called my attorney.

At eleven, I called Harrington, Cole & Pierce.

A woman named Miriam Cole answered personally.

“Mr. Serrano.”

“You expected my call.”

“Yes.”

“Did Elena know I was Renata's father?”

There was a pause.

“Yes.”

My knees weakened.

I sat.

“Did she try to tell me?”

“Yes.”

“How many times?”

“Mr. Serrano, there are twenty-three letters in our custody.”

I closed my eyes.

Twenty-three.

“Were they sent?”

“Most were.”

“And?”

“Most were returned to Ms. Marquez unopened.”

“Returned by whom?”

“We have reason to believe your mother.”

I couldn't speak.

Miriam continued.

“There are also emails, recorded voice messages, and one sworn video statement.”

“When?”

“Two months before Elena died.”

“Why wasn't I contacted?”

“We attempted to contact you after her death.”

“I received nothing.”

“I know.”

“How?”

“Because three notices were signed for at your company's executive office.”

My stomach twisted.

“By who?”

“We're still investigating.”

I already suspected.

My father had controlled the executive office.

“Why contact me now?”

“Because someone accessed the sealed file in October.”

“Who?”

“We don't know yet.”

“And that triggered the letter?”

“Partly.”

“What else?”

She hesitated.

“Mr. Serrano, Elena left instructions that certain evidence remain sealed unless one of three conditions occurred.”

“What conditions?”

“Renata turned eighteen.”

I waited.

“You attempted to access her original adoption records.”

“I haven't.”

“Correct.”

“And the third?”

Miriam's voice changed.

“Evidence emerged that someone from the Serrano family was mistreating the child.”

I stopped breathing.

“How would Elena have predicted that?”

“She didn't.”

“Then who reported it?”

“Your sister.”

Daniela.

I stood.

“What?”

“She contacted our firm six weeks ago.”

I remembered my sister's face at Christmas.

Not surprise.

Guilt.

“What did she say?”

“She said she believed your mother was becoming increasingly hostile toward Renata and that she feared the reason was connected to Elena.”

My anger changed direction.

“Daniela knew?”

“She knew part of it.”

“How much?”

“You should ask her.”

I did.

Twenty minutes later, Daniela sat across from me in my living room.

She had been crying before she arrived.

I didn't offer coffee.

I didn't hug her.

I simply asked, “How long?”

She looked at the floor.

“I knew Elena was pregnant.”

The room went silent.

“How long?”

“Since seven years ago.”

I stared at my sister.

“You knew for seven years?”

“I didn't know Renata was yours until after the accident.”

“You knew Elena was carrying my child.”

“Mom told me it might not be yours.”

“And you believed her?”

“I was twenty-six, Mauricio.”

“You were an adult.”

“I know.”

“Did you know Mom made Elena leave?”

Daniela cried harder.

“I knew they offered her money.”

“How much?”

“Two hundred thousand.”

I laughed without humor.

“For my child?”

“She didn't take it.”

That hurt more.

Elena had refused.

“Did she ask for me?”

“Yes.”

The word was nearly inaudible.

“How many times?”

“I don't know.”

“Did she come to the house?”

Daniela nodded.

“When?”

“The week after you came back from Chicago.”

My hands went cold.

I had been at my parents' house that week.

Sleeping in my childhood bedroom because I couldn't stand being in the apartment Elena had left.

“What happened?”

“Mom wouldn't let her inside.”

“Was I there?”

“Yes.”

I stood so quickly Daniela flinched.

“She came to the house while I was upstairs?”

“Yes.”

“And nobody told me?”

Daniela covered her face.

“She was crying, Mauricio.”

I turned away.

I could see the scene.

Elena on the front steps.

Pregnant.

Desperate.

Me upstairs believing she had betrayed me.

My mother standing between us.

“How far along?”

“Almost four months.”

I pressed both hands against the window.

“She asked Mom to give you an ultrasound picture.”

My chest tightened.

“Did she?”

“No.”

“What happened to it?”

“I don't know.”

Then Daniela whispered, “Mom burned some things.”

I turned.

“What things?”

“Letters.”

The room blurred.

“She burned Elena's letters?”

“I saw her once.”

“And you said nothing?”

“I was scared.”

“Of what?”

“Our parents.”

“So was Elena.”

Daniela looked at me.

“I know.”

“No. You don't.”

I pointed upstairs.

“My six-year-old daughter was standing on a stool washing your children's dishes yesterday because Mom spent years teaching everybody that Renata deserved less.”

Daniela began sobbing.

“I am sorry.”

“Sofia and Emma sat there.”

“I know.”

“You sat there.”

Her face collapsed.

“I know.”

I had never hated my sister.

Not once.

Even then, I didn't hate her.

But I couldn't forgive her.

Not yet.

Before she left, she stopped at the door.

“There is something else.”

I waited.

“The night Elena died, Mom wasn't home.”

Every muscle in my body tightened.

“Where was she?”

“I don't know.”

“What time?”

“She left around six.”

I remembered the accident report.

Elena had crashed shortly after eight.

“Did she say where she was going?”

Daniela shook her head.

“But when she came home, her coat was torn.”

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My mouth went dry.

“And there was blood on her sleeve.”

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