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Chapter 6 - My Father's Last Letter

Aunt Margaret placed the leather folder on the library table.

My mother's face changed in a way I had never seen before.

Fear.

Real fear.

"You have no right to be here," Eleanor said.

Margaret ignored her.

"Silas, your father gave me this three months before he died. He made me promise not to show you unless Eleanor tried to use the family trust to control your personal life. I thought the condition was too specific to ever happen."

I looked at my mother.

She was pale.

"What is it?"

Margaret opened the folder.

Inside was a handwritten letter in my father's unmistakable script.

Silas,

If you are reading this, then I was right about something I prayed I was wrong about.

I stopped.

My father had been ill when he wrote it. His handwriting shook slightly toward the end of each line.

I continued.

Your mother loves fiercely, but fear has turned that love into control. I allowed it for too many years because it was easier to call her strength what I knew was domination. I let her manage conflicts I should have faced myself. I let her separate me from people who challenged us. And I watched you learn the same habits.

My throat tightened.

Across the room, Eleanor whispered, "He was sick."

Margaret snapped, "He was dying, not confused."

I kept reading.

Do not let the company become an excuse for cowardice. Do not make a woman compete with Lockwood Holdings for your attention and then blame her when she gets tired of losing. And never let your mother decide whom you are allowed to love. I did that once. It cost me more than I ever admitted.

I looked up.

"What did he mean?"

Margaret answered before my mother could.

"Your father's first child."

I remembered Eleanor's story.

"The baby who died?"

Margaret's face hardened.

"The baby did not die."

Silence.

My mother closed her eyes.

I stared at Margaret.

"What?"

"Your father had a son before he married Eleanor. His name is Daniel Mercer. He is forty-seven years old and lives in Vermont."

The floor seemed to tilt.

"My father had another son?"

"Yes."

"And he knew?"

"Yes."

I turned slowly toward my mother.

"You told me the child died."

She said nothing.

"Why?"

Margaret answered.

"Because Eleanor demanded that your father choose. Her or the woman and child."

"That's a lie," my mother said.

"I was there."

"You were a jealous girl who hated me before I married your brother."

"I hated what you did to him."

I felt sick.

My father's letter continued.

I failed Daniel. There is no elegant way to say it. I sent money and called that responsibility because I was too afraid to lose the life I had chosen with Eleanor. By the time I found the courage to reach out, he wanted nothing from me. He was right.

Silas, do not repeat me.

If there is ever a child, a marriage, a person you love standing on the other side of your mother's fear, choose truth. Even if truth costs you the family image. Especially then.

I sat down.

The final line broke me.

Be a better man sooner than I was.

Dad.

For several minutes, no one spoke.

My father's entire life looked different.

My mother's story about the dead infant had not been an imperfect memory.

It had been another edited reality.

"Where is Daniel?" I asked.

Margaret gave me a card.

"He owns a furniture workshop outside Burlington. He knows you exist."

"Does he know Dad wrote this?"

"No."

My mother finally spoke.

"Daniel's mother wanted money."

Margaret laughed bitterly.

"She wanted Richard to acknowledge his son."

"She threatened our marriage."

"No, Eleanor. Reality threatened your fantasy of control."

I stood and looked at my mother.

"You did this before."

"Silas—"

"You separated a father from his son before I was even born."

"Your father made his choice."

"After you forced the choice."

"He could have left me."

"And I could have asked questions. Carolina could have kept calling. Everyone could have fought harder. That's how you survive, isn't it? You make everyone share enough blame that your own part looks smaller."

She flinched.

It was the first time I knew I had reached her.

Not changed her.

Reached her.

I took my father's letter and left.

That night, I went to Carolina.

I told her everything.

The secret brother.

The letter.

My father's warning.

She listened with Gabriel asleep in her arms.

"Your father knew," she said.

"Too late."

"Maybe. But he knew."

I sat on the floor beside the sofa.

"I became him anyway."

"No."

I looked at her.

"Carolina, I made you compete with my work. I let my mother handle things I didn't want to deal with. I left messages unanswered because I assumed anything urgent would reach me. I built a life where other people controlled access to me. She used that. But I built it."

Carolina's eyes filled.

"I needed you to say that two years ago."

"I know."

"I needed you to come home when I asked."

"I know."

"I needed you to stop making me feel childish for wanting dinner with my husband."

Every word belonged to me.

No mother to blame.

No conspiracy to hide behind.

"I know."

She wiped a tear with the back of her hand.

"And I needed to stop pretending leaving was the only way to make you hear me. I filed because I thought the shock would wake you up. Then you signed."

"Because I thought if you wanted out, holding you would make me my mother."

She gave a broken laugh.

"So we both tried to be noble and destroyed our marriage."

"With help."

"A lot of help."

Gabriel stirred.

Carolina looked down at him.

"What happens now?"

"I learn how to be his father."

"And us?"

There it was.

The question I wanted to answer too quickly.

So I did something new.

I waited.

"I don't know," I said. "I want you back. But wanting isn't enough. And I don't want Gabriel to become another reason you feel pressured to stay with me."

Carolina stared at me.

"That may be the first truly adult thing you've ever said to me."

"Cruel."

"Accurate."

I smiled.

She smiled too.

Then my phone rang.

Naomi.

"Silas, we have a problem."

"What now?"

"Your mother left the townhouse. Security can't locate her."

I stood.

"She's suspended from family operations. Where would she go?"

"That's not the worst part. Marjorie Wren is gone too. And someone accessed the family office archive forty minutes ago using an emergency credential."

"What did they access?"

May you like

Naomi's voice tightened.

"Everything related to Project Gabriel."

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