Chapter 5 - The Man I Thought I Wanted to Lose
I do not remember leaving the command center.
I remember Daniel grabbing my coat.
I remember someone saying I could not go to the hospital.
I remember telling them they could either drive me or explain to three federal agencies why I stole a government vehicle.
Apparently that sounded convincing.
Vincent had been hit high in the chest.
The bullet entered near his right shoulder and traveled downward.
He lost a terrifying amount of blood.
When I reached the hospital, Marcus stood in the hallway with blood on his shirt.
“Where is he?”
“Surgery.”
“Is he alive?”
“Yes.”
“For now?”
Marcus looked away.
That was answer enough.
Sofia sat against the wall, wrapped in a blanket.
Her face was gray.
When she saw me, she stood.
“I’m sorry.”
I did not answer.
Not because I blamed her.
Because if I spoke, I would scream.
I walked to the waiting room.
Sat.
Stared at the floor.
For months, I had imagined life without Vincent.
A quiet apartment.
My own work.
No guards.
No emergency calls.
No Sofia.
No blood.
No waiting.
Now there was a surgeon somewhere behind those doors deciding whether that imagined life would become permanent.
I hated the thought.
That angered me.
I had filed for divorce.
I had left.
I had promised myself I was finished.
But love did not disappear because paperwork existed.
It only became something I refused to live inside.
My mother arrived.
She sat beside me.
“You still love him.”
I laughed bitterly.
“That’s inconvenient.”
“Yes.”
“I don’t want to.”
“I know.”
“He hurt me.”
“I know.”
“He might die.”
My mother took my hand.
“And that doesn’t erase the hurt.”
I looked at her.
She continued.
“You don’t have to choose between loving him and remembering what he did.”
That sentence saved me.
Three hours later, the surgeon came out.
Vincent survived.
The bullet missed his heart.
Barely.
He would need weeks of recovery.
Maybe months.
I cried in the hospital bathroom.
Then washed my face before seeing him.
He was unconscious.
Tubes.
Machines.
Bandages.
Vincent always looked too powerful for hospital beds.
That night, he looked human.
I sat beside him.
I did not hold his hand at first.
Eventually I did.
“You are not allowed to die,” I whispered.
No response.
“I’m still divorcing you.”
Nothing.
“You owe me several arguments.”
His fingers moved.
I froze.
His eyes opened slightly.
“Claire?”
His voice was barely sound.
“I’m here.”
He blinked.
Then tried to smile.
“Divorce?”
I almost laughed.
“Yes.”
His eyes closed.
“Okay.”
I stared.
“Okay?”
“Your choice.”
Then he fell asleep.
That mattered more than I wanted it to.
Antonio was arrested.
The balcony gunman was one of his oldest lieutenants.
Investigators uncovered enough evidence to bury Antonio under charges for the rest of his life.
Attempted murder.
Fraud.
Racketeering.
Conspiracy.
Money laundering.
Kidnapping.
The list kept growing.
More importantly, Antonio confessed to staging his death.
Not because he felt guilty.
Because the evidence was overwhelming and he wanted leverage.
The biggest shock came from old Moretti records.
Antonio had not taken the bullet for Vincent twelve years earlier.
He arranged the shooting.
The original shooter intentionally hit Antonio in a survivable location.
The entire sacrifice was staged.
Everything Vincent believed about his debt had been built on theater.
When Marcus told him in the hospital, Vincent stared at the wall for a long time.
Then he laughed once.
Quiet.
Empty.
“I gave him twelve years.”
Marcus said nothing.
“I gave his daughter everything.”
“She didn’t know.”
“I know.”
“I chose her over Claire.”
Marcus stayed quiet.
Vincent looked toward the window.
“For a lie.”
“No.”
Vincent turned.
Marcus continued.
“You chose your guilt over Claire.”
That hurt more because it was true.
I returned that afternoon.
Vincent was sitting up.
Pale.
Angry at physical weakness.
Normal.
“You shouldn’t be out of bed.”
“I’m in bed.”
“You’re sitting aggressively.”
He almost smiled.
Then his expression changed.
“Antonio staged the original shooting.”
“I know.”
“Sofia didn’t know.”
“I know.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Vincent.”
“I need to say it.”
I sat.
He looked directly at me.
“I used Antonio’s promise as an excuse.”
I said nothing.
“I told myself I was honorable.”
His mouth twisted.
“It was easier than admitting I liked being needed.”
That surprised me.
“What?”
“Sofia needed everything.”
He stared at his hands.
“Money. Security. Decisions. Help.”
“And I didn’t.”
“No.”
I swallowed.
He continued.
“You were competent. Calm. Independent.”
“Not always.”
“I thought you would always be fine.”
“That’s not love.”
“I know.”
His eyes lifted.
“I treated your strength like permission to neglect you.”
The words cut.
Because that was exactly what happened.
“Sofia cried, and I ran.”
“Yes.”
“You stayed quiet, and I assumed silence meant you needed nothing.”
“Yes.”
“I was wrong.”
“Yes.”
For once, the repetition did not feel cruel.
It felt necessary.
Vincent reached toward me.
Then stopped before touching.
“I don’t expect forgiveness.”
Good.
“I don’t expect you to cancel the divorce.”
Better.
“I only want one thing.”
“What?”
“The chance to become someone who would deserve you.”
My chest tightened.
“That sounds like asking me to wait.”
“No.”
He answered immediately.
“Don’t wait.”
I stared.
He continued.
“Live your life.”
His voice roughened.
“If someday I become someone you would choose again, I’ll ask.”
“And if I don’t?”
His face hurt.
“Then I live with that.”
That was the first truly loving thing Vincent Moretti had ever offered me.
Freedom.
I stood.
“Recover.”
He nodded.
I walked toward the door.
“Claire.”
I turned.
“I’m glad you left.”
I stared.
He swallowed.
“If you had stayed, I might never have understood what I was doing to you.”
Tears burned my eyes.
“That doesn’t make it okay.”
“No.”
“Good.”
I left.
The divorce proceeded.
Vincent stopped contesting it.
Rachel called me in disbelief.
“He accepted every major term.”
“Every?”
“The condo. Your personal investments. A substantial settlement. No dispute over property.”
“What’s the trick?”
“I asked his attorney.”
“And?”
“He said Mr. Moretti’s instruction was, quote, ‘Give my wife anything that makes leaving easier.’”
I closed my eyes.
That man.
Always dramatic.
I accepted only what was legally fair.
No revenge settlement.
I did not want to build my new life from guilt money.
When the divorce became final, Vincent did not call.
He sent one message.
You deserved a husband who answered the phone. I’m sorry I understood that after I became your ex-husband.
I read it six times.
Then deleted it.
Then recovered it from deleted messages.
Emotional growth was apparently uneven.
I rebuilt my career.
Using my nonprofit experience and financial investigation work, I joined an anti-fraud consulting firm.
Six months later, I launched my own small practice with Rachel’s encouragement.
Bennett Integrity Consulting.
We helped charities identify fraud and improve financial controls.
Turns out nearly being murdered over nonprofit embezzlement made for strong professional motivation.
My first year went well.
My second went better.
Vincent stayed away.
Mostly.
He sent flowers on my mother’s birthday.
She kept them.
Traitor.
He donated anonymously to a community clinic I supported.
I recognized the shell foundation immediately.
He denied it.
Badly.
Sofia entered therapy.
Not performative therapy.
Real therapy.
She moved out of the luxury apartment Vincent owned and rented a smaller place herself.
She got a job outside the Moretti organization.
For the first time, she paid her own bills.
Occasionally, she texted.
I answered sometimes.
We were not friends.
But we were no longer enemies created by Vincent’s bad boundaries.
A year after the divorce, I saw Vincent at a charity gala.
I was speaking with a donor when the room shifted.
People always noticed him.
He wore a black tuxedo.
His shoulder had healed.
The old scar was hidden.
He looked the same.
He wasn’t.
He saw me across the ballroom.
Did not approach.
Just nodded.
Respecting space.
Infuriatingly attractive.
I nodded back.
Ten minutes later, a man named Evan Cole asked me to dance.
I said yes.
Partly because Evan was charming.
Partly because Vincent was watching.
I was not above pettiness.
Evan worked in commercial real estate.
Divorced.
Forty.
Normal.
Normal became very appealing.
During the dance, he asked, “Is the terrifying man near the bar your ex-husband?”
“Yes.”
“Should I be worried?”
“No.”
I glanced at Vincent.
“Probably.”
Evan laughed.
We dated for three months.
He was kind.
Reliable.
Texted when late.
Answered every call.
I should have loved him.
I didn’t.
That wasn’t Vincent’s fault.
Not everything was.
Evan eventually said, “You’re comparing me to him.”
“I’m sorry.”
“No.”
He smiled sadly.
“You’re comparing how safe I am to how deeply you loved him.”
I looked away.
Evan squeezed my hand.
“That’s different.”
We ended gently.
Two weeks later, Vincent’s organization was attacked.
Not by Antonio.
He remained in federal custody.
A new group moved against Moretti freight routes.
The news reached me through television.
Old fear returned.
I nearly called.
Didn’t.
That evening, Sofia called me.
“Vincent’s hurt.”
My heart stopped.
“How badly?”
“Not badly.”
I exhaled.
“Then why are you calling me?”
She was quiet.
“Because I almost called him.”
“What?”
“Someone shot at my car today too.”
I closed my eyes.
“Are you okay?”
“Yes.”
“And?”
“I wanted to call Vincent.”
“But you didn’t.”
“No.”
“Why?”
Sofia whispered, “Because I realized I have other people now.”
That mattered.
Then she added, “You were the person I called.”
I almost laughed.
“Life is strange.”
“Yes.”
The attack turned out not to be random.
Someone was targeting both Vincent and Sofia.
Someone connected to Antonio’s old network.
Someone who believed Antonio’s empire should survive.
And this time, the person running it was not a stranger.
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It was Antonio’s son.
A son Sofia never knew existed.
