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Chapter 1 - The Door He Had No Right to OpenDominic reached for his car keys before Marco had finished speaking.

The security chief stayed in the doorway.

“Move.”

“Let me call her first.”

“You think I need permission to see my own wife?”

Marco’s gaze dropped to the wedding ring in Dominic’s hand. “I think arriving angry in the middle of the night will make things worse.”

For years, that tone had meant a loose guard, an unfamiliar vehicle, a business associate whose story needed checking. Dominic had relied on Marco’s judgment when money and lives were involved. Now he resented the man for applying the same judgment to him.

“She told you where she went.”

“After she got there. She wanted someone to know Noah was safe.”

“Then give me the address.”

“If I do that without asking, she won’t trust me again.”

Dominic stepped away. On the dresser, a pale rectangle marked where Noah’s photograph had stood. Beside it lay a tiny white sock, missed during packing.

He picked it up. It scarcely covered two of his fingers.

“Call her,” he said.

Marco took out his phone.

“And ask,” Dominic added, staring at the sock.

Marco went into the hallway. Dominic could hear his low voice but not Rebecca’s reply. It occurred to him that she might be asleep, that his desperation might have interrupted the first decent stretch of rest she’d had all week.

The thought made him feel foolish. He had treated sleep as something she could find between feedings and household arrangements, like a missing appointment in a calendar.

Marco returned.

“Ten tomorrow morning. At her aunt’s house in Evanston. You and me, no one else. She wants you to leave when she asks.”

“Is she all right?”

“She said Noah is sleeping.”

That wasn’t what he’d asked. It was exactly what Rebecca would answer.

After Marco left, Dominic sat in the rocking chair and opened his messages again.

There was a photograph of Noah asleep with his fist against his cheek. Another showed him in the little striped sleeper Dominic had ordered and never seen him wear. Between the pictures were practical questions.

Can you be home by six?

Do you know where the insurance card went?

You said this weekend. Please tell me you still mean it.

He scrolled into the weeks before the trip. Rebecca had been asking him to come home long before she’d left.

He had answered some messages with thumbs-up symbols. Others with promises so casually made he couldn’t remember typing them. At the time, they’d seemed sufficient. He was working. He paid the bills. There were people available to help her.

In one video, Rebecca had balanced the phone against a lamp while she tried to fasten Noah’s sleeper. One tiny foot kept escaping. She laughed, tired and surprised, and told the baby his father would probably find that funny.

Dominic watched until the screen went dark.

She hadn’t sent it to accuse him. That was what hurt. For weeks, she’d kept opening little windows into their son’s life, trusting that he would eventually look through one.

He played the video again, this time watching her face instead of the baby. There was a moment when she glanced toward the bedroom door. She had been listening for him.

The fact that she had asked for him had begun to irritate him.

Now he read her final message and couldn’t find a single sentence to send back that wouldn’t sound cheap.

He typed, I’m sorry.

Deleted it.

Typed, I need to see you.

Deleted that too.

At last he wrote, Marco told me ten. I’ll be there.

He set his phone on his knee and waited for an answer that never came.

Near dawn, he went into their bedroom. Her pillow was missing. He noticed that before the open spaces in her closet, before the absent face cream on the bathroom counter.

She had taken the worn pillow she always folded under one arm. The one he’d suggested throwing away because it looked out of place on their bed.

He sat on her side of the mattress until daylight reached the carpet.

At nine, Marco found him dressed in yesterday’s trousers and a clean shirt.

“Should I bring anything?” Dominic asked.

Marco considered the question. “Whatever she asks you to bring.”

She hadn’t asked for anything.

Dominic put the velvet box in his pocket anyway.

June Ward’s house stood on a narrow street lined with old trees and parked cars. A bicycle leaned against the porch next door. Someone had left a sack of leaves beside a driveway.

Dominic had been there twice during his marriage. Both visits had been brief. He remembered thinking the house was too small for family gatherings.

Now he noticed the upstairs window with its curtains open and wondered whether that was where his son slept.

He reached into his pocket, touched the ring box, and left it in the car.

June opened the door before he knocked a second time.

She wore jeans and a cardigan with a loose button. There was a burp cloth over her shoulder.

“She’s in the kitchen.”

“June—”

“Wash your hands. The bathroom’s where it was the last time.”

He did as she said.

When he entered the kitchen, Rebecca was sitting beside the window with Noah tucked against her. His blue blanket covered her knees. A mug of tea stood within reach, along with a piece of toast cut into quarters.

She looked tired. He’d expected that. What unsettled him was how completely she seemed to belong in the chair, in the quiet kitchen, in a morning that hadn’t been arranged around him.

“Hi,” he said.

“Hi.”

Marco remained near the back door. June took the chair opposite Rebecca.

Dominic looked at his son. Noah’s mouth moved in his sleep.

“He’s bigger.”

Rebecca’s hand settled protectively over the baby’s back. “He’s supposed to be.”

Dominic pulled out a chair, then paused. “May I?”

She nodded.

For a few seconds, the only sound was the refrigerator running.

He had rehearsed things in the car. That he’d been selfish. That he would fix this. That the house was unbearable without them.

Sitting across from her, he heard how much every sentence was about himself.

“I should have come home,” he said.

“Yes.”

“I should have answered.”

“Yes.”

He looked down at his hands. “I don’t know how to start.”

“You could tell me where you were.”

He glanced at June, then at Marco.

Rebecca didn’t help him. She didn’t send anyone away to spare his pride.

“With Vanessa,” he said.

Her face changed very little, but her fingers stopped moving over Noah’s blanket.

“The whole week?”

“Yes.”

“And when I asked if the meetings could wait?”

He could remember fastening his watch while she stood in the bedroom doorway. He’d told her that some responsibilities didn’t stop because they’d had a baby.

“There weren’t meetings,” he said.

June rose to carry her untouched coffee to the sink.

Rebecca watched him for a moment longer. “I knew. I still needed you to say it.”

“Rebecca, I want you to come home.”

Her expression closed.

He recognized the mistake as soon as he’d made it.

“That’s what you came to ask?”

“I want to make things right.”

“Then don’t start by asking me to pack.”

Noah stirred. A small complaint escaped him, then another. Dominic instinctively reached across the table.

“Can I hold him?”

Rebecca hesitated before standing. She guided the baby’s head into the crook of his arm, showed him where to put his other hand, and waited until she was sure he had him.

Noah blinked at the unfamiliar face above him.

“Hey, little man,” Dominic whispered.

For one extraordinary moment, the baby was quiet.

Then his face crumpled.

Dominic stood too quickly. “What’s wrong?”

“Sit down,” Rebecca said. “He doesn’t like being moved suddenly.”

Dominic sat. He tried the gentle rocking motion he’d seen Rebecca use. Noah’s cries grew louder.

“He’s probably hungry.”

“He just ate.”

“Then what—”

He stopped, hearing impatience in his own voice. Noah was five weeks old. He wasn’t an employee failing to explain a problem.

Rebecca reached for the baby. Dominic held on for one beat too long, wanting to prove something none of them had asked him to prove.

Then he let her take him.

She settled Noah against her shoulder and walked to the window. Her palm moved slowly down his back. Within a minute, the crying softened.

Dominic sat with his empty hands on his knees.

“He doesn’t know me.”

Rebecca kissed the baby’s hair. “You haven’t given him much chance.”

There was no satisfaction in her voice. That made it worse.

June took a clean spoon from the drawer and set it beside Rebecca’s tea. Such a small thing. Dominic remembered all the expensive objects he’d bought for his wife and couldn’t remember the last time he’d noticed she needed a spoon.

Early in their marriage, Rebecca used to sit on his kitchen counter while he made coffee. She would steal the first sip from his mug, complain that he made it too strong, and take another. He’d liked being able to make her laugh before the day began.

Lately, he’d only seen her when she needed something: a decision, an answer, an hour he didn’t want to give. He had stopped wondering what happened during all the hours when he wasn’t there.

Across the table, she was rubbing a stiff place in her shoulder. He had never asked whether carrying their son hurt.

“I can arrange a nurse,” he said. “Someone you choose. Here, if you want.”

“We can discuss help through my attorney.”

He looked up. “Your attorney?”

“Ellen Park.”

“You’ve hired a lawyer.”

“Yes.”

He wanted to ask who had put the idea in her head. The question rose so easily that he was ashamed of it before he spoke.

“All right,” he said instead.

Rebecca returned to her chair. “You can visit Noah. We’ll arrange times. For now, June or I will be here. You don’t show up because you happen to have an opening in your day. You don’t send anyone to report on us.”

“I wouldn’t—”

She looked at Marco.

Dominic remembered ordering him to find her.

“All right,” he repeated.

“And if you make a promise to Noah, you keep it.”

He nodded.

“I’m serious, Dominic. Don’t tell me you’ll be here at four and arrive at eight with a gift.”

“I understand.”

“I don’t think you do yet.”

She shifted the sleeping baby and finally picked up her toast. Dominic noticed that her hand shook slightly. He’d been there almost forty minutes, and she was only now taking a bite.

He pushed her mug closer. She looked at it, then at him, but said nothing.

“What happens next?” he asked.

Rebecca swallowed. June reached beneath the stack of mail on the counter and handed her a large envelope.

Something about the way June handled it made Marco straighten.

“Before we decide that,” Rebecca said, “you need to explain this.”

She slid several pages across the table.

The heading described a maternal-fitness assessment. Below it were allegations about erratic behavior, unsafe judgment, and preparations for an emergency custody request.

Dominic read the first paragraph twice.

“What is this?”

“Your office had it delivered to Ellen yesterday.”

“I didn’t—”

“Look at the last page.”

His signature sat at the bottom, clean and unmistakable.

Above it was a date three days before she’d left the mansion.

Two days before he’d gone away with Vanessa.

May you like

Rebecca kept one hand on their sleeping son while Dominic stared at the paper.

“Tell me,” she said, “when did you decide I wasn’t fit to be his mother?”

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